Tao within

A lonely place April 18, 2007

It is a lonely place in which you are different from majority, not only physically but also culturally;

It is a lonely place in which your expereince is too unique to understand by majority;

It is a lonely place to be when no one understands your suffering;

It is a lonely place to be when you have to fight alone.

It is a lonely place to be when you don’t belong.

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I have always known that this is not an easy path, being myself and finding my soul, but I never knew it would be this hard.  What makes the path even harder is people’s indefference and ignorance.  After years of struggling, I realize that the most reliable thing is my spirit.  The only thing gets me going on this journey is my faith in this process.  I have to remind myself over and over again that no matter how painful the experience is, I’ll get through it, and no matter how tough the process is, it will pass.  Somehow, I have to believe that I’m more than the process or my experience.  This attitude is what I only get, and yet, having a good attitude doesn’t make it any easier.  Oh, yes, I am lonely. 

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I feel so lonely

I’m standing tall but alone

Can I expect someone to understand me and be with me?

Who can be with me without patronizing me and judging me?

Who will stand by me?  Who?

I’m lonely because I don’t dare to expect…