When I met you… January 21, 2009
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When I met you…
- To Ido -
When I met you, I knew that you would ultimately leave me.
And yet,
I still chose to open my heart,
Inviting you to come to my life, to witness my life,
Allowing myself to show you the most vulnerable and the darkest side of me.
When I was scared and panic,
You always told me with a very calm tone,
“You are safe here!”
When I fell into swirls of sorrow.
You would use your gentle voice to hold me tight,
Letting me know that I could wail and howl without holding back,
Grieving all the losses in my life.
When I was in touch with my deepest anger,
You would encourage me to express my rage,
And you would meet my anger firmly with understanding and compassion
When I started doubting myself,
You would show me my value by loving me and accepting me unconditionally
When I questioned the meaning of life,
You would always patiently bring me back to the here and now,
And let me experience the power of the presence.
Letting me understand
The answer is the here and now.
Through your eyes,
I’ve finally seen “me”.
Through your love,
I’ve finally found “me”.
After all,
When I open my heart,
When I show my vulnerability,
I can connect with you.
Oh~
I have been seen
I have been heard
I have been cared
I have been loved
I have been accepted fully
By you…
And I,
I love you so much
Even though I knew you would ultimately leave me
Although I know that everything would end between us.
Oh~I do love you dearly!
When I met you,
I knew that you would ultimately leave.
And now,
It is the time.
My heart is aching because of your departure,
And yet, my heart is so full,
Full of gratitude and contentment
Because I know
I have been loved like this.
Oh~I love you so deeply
Even though you are going to leave me.
I can love you so deep because I have the ability to love myself.
Oh~I do love you truly,
With all my heart.
A lonely place April 18, 2007
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It is a lonely place in which you are different from majority, not only physically but also culturally;
It is a lonely place in which your expereince is too unique to understand by majority;
It is a lonely place to be when no one understands your suffering;
It is a lonely place to be when you have to fight alone.
It is a lonely place to be when you don’t belong.
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I have always known that this is not an easy path, being myself and finding my soul, but I never knew it would be this hard. What makes the path even harder is people’s indefference and ignorance. After years of struggling, I realize that the most reliable thing is my spirit. The only thing gets me going on this journey is my faith in this process. I have to remind myself over and over again that no matter how painful the experience is, I’ll get through it, and no matter how tough the process is, it will pass. Somehow, I have to believe that I’m more than the process or my experience. This attitude is what I only get, and yet, having a good attitude doesn’t make it any easier. Oh, yes, I am lonely.
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I feel so lonely
I’m standing tall but alone
Can I expect someone to understand me and be with me?
Who can be with me without patronizing me and judging me?
Who will stand by me? Who?
I’m lonely because I don’t dare to expect…
I am here! February 28, 2007
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I am here, breathing and experiencing
I am here to open my heart and share my life with you
I am here, waiting for you to open your heart
I am here to make connection
with my self
with you
with the universe
I am here, standing tall…
